Looking for Advice

[gutwrenching]

Rocked - time - no. Less than 24 hours. We both were pulled aside after a meeting we were both at and were told by a supervisor that we might both get considered for job regardless if we want it or not...supervisor didn't want us to be surprised. Supervisor tried to get us to go into office to discuss, but I difused the sitch real quick by saying look we haven't even discussed this yet how can we go talk to you about it, we would have nothing to say yet. So I got us out of that conversation in front of supervisor--that could have been awkward. I put on my jacket to leave while W was talking to people still and W then got herself ready and left with me. I mentioned something non-threatening along the lines of I'm not surprised your a good fit and didn't really get a reply. So I changed the subject and we had a friendly chat walking back to our offices about work related items other than job sitch.

Oh and I am not stressing at the moment. W wouldn't want to take that job as single parent. I just don't want to have to talk about the future at this point, but if we have to, well there's no way around it that I can see. So will have to deal with it. I know I won't like what she has to say at this point, that is obvious in her actions and complete pull back to how things were prior to suicide.

But I can read the body language - scared/worried would be the best words to describe what I saw in her face. I tried making jokes/light of the situation in-front of the supervisor with comments like "we won't answer our phones today" not much else I could do.

This could turn out to be nothing, it could all disappear as quickly as it surfaced, we'll see.