It is getting harder to see H at work and not think about us.
Since we still have bills in common there is still a bit of contact needed. I was not looking forward to asking him for his share but today he surprised me by letting me know that he was bringing in a check tommorrow. I appreciated his taking the initiative to think in advance, check on his own and then let me know what he will be doing.
I can tell that I am not ready to talk to him - my mind just goes back to the old arguments and hurts. I have been praying and having meditations to let go and heal from the wounds of this M and then to see if we can move forward.
Help! I find I keep going back to think about him all the time instead of staying focused on me and what I need to do.
Keep in mind that my D-19 just left to go back to college - I am missing her sooooo much right now - she helped me out a lot through the holidays - keeping me company and running me around, having a lot of girl nights, and made C really special. UGH!
