Alrighty then...today I'm still doing okay. Have had a couple of 'moments' but they've passed as quickly as they came...I still have a big thing for H's cell phone. I know that he deletes numbers nightly...I asked him about it and he said that he's always done that...but I don't think he started doing that until I found the PHONE # in it when I snooped months and months ago...that's when he caught on that I was checking the cell caller Id etc....so NOW the fact that he deletes his numbers in and out daily keeps me skeptical....I think I may always fear/hate that cell phone for a long time to come.

Other than that, the few spastic moments I've had, I kept to myself and they floated over rather quietly, leaving little or no pain in their wake.

H has been in good spirits and acting like his 'old self' for several days now.

ONE BIG positive today is (and you all know how I feel about the AA thing considering the fact that both his As were with AA women)...anyway....tonight a member called and apparently wanted to talk (the program) with my H and my H actually told him to come HERE for coffee and a chat tomorrow rather than go somewhere to meet him. THAT IS AN ABSOLUTE FIRST When he got off the phone he told me a little about the guy, just how long he's been sober, where he's from, how old etc....MY H has NEVER allowed me to "know" anything about his AA buddies...that was always one of our biggest problems in that he purposefully kept me out of the loop...like I was an 'outcast'...when in fact I think he used the program (these 20+) years as his 'other life'...so this is a biggie for him.
I of course will keep the coffee going and stay away so they can "talk"...I don't want to know this man's personal biz...but I am happy just to know that my H has decided that I do have to be a part of his ENTIRE life.

So that one postive equals 3 in my book today.
T2