SPM,I agree with all that's been said so far, especially this:
Originally Posted By: volleydog
You HAVE to force yourself to get out even for a 10 minute walk, you'll feel better, trust me.
but I would make that walk straight to my doctor's office or the nearest clinic.
I'm curious as to why your friends or family haven't intervened and physically, bodily, hauled you in for medical attention.
Originally Posted By: SirPrizeMe
the only reason I don't, the ONLY reason, is that I think it would unfairly saddle my kids with guilt and shame.
I understand this, but what do you think your current state is saddling them with?
Summon up the strength - it's still there, just hidden and atrophied - to get up and do one thing different, one thing positive, one thing. Take that walk, call a mental health clinic, anything. Take one action.

Last edited by Gardener; 01/19/10 07:01 PM.
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