That's good. I think part of it is being able to control your own emotions. I don't think we always do that, or always can, but I also think, at least for me, that having that mini meltdown last night did me a world of good.

I still love my H. I probably always will. I don't expect that we will get back together. And at this moment, I am really okay about that. I think it is the beginning of acceptance for me, and it feels good. I am sure there will be more tears to shed.

But I also know that I have some control over this situation. I dont always need to be the nice guy. I am allowed to protect my own heart, preserve my own feelings, and tell him to take a long walk off a short pier if I feel the need.

And it is absolutely liberating.

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..