SPM,

I came very close to where you are last summer.

I too gave up in the D battle for the sake of the kids and lost everything with only family to hold me up.

I think you came here to post as you have to encourage yourself. To remind yourself of the better qualities there in, who you once were, and who you can be again.

Is there a specific reason why you haven't had visitation with your kids? That would be a key help for you. Sure money, got ya, but there are still plenty of things that can be done without it, or at least for very little.

Pull yourself up buddy. You're not the only one whose been where you are, and you certainly and unfortunately won't be the last. But you could by pulling your life back together as best possible in these trying times be a model to someone else in the same predicament now, if not later.

peace

-dylan


Me 35/XW 33
S13 & S12
M: 10/17/98
OM & S: 07/08
D final 06/09/09
12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing"
06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10
06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11