Not Me...Ever part 2

[Serenity13]

(((Everyone))))

To all of you who came, I thank you...
Thank you for the support, wisdom, the hugs, the song, the strength you project to me...

While I do understand he is hurting, I also have to think about my little one who is learning horrible things from the oldest (ie: cursing me, throwing things, slamming doors etc...) Last night was just plain and simple - Nothing but ugliness all around...

Oldest, wouldn't go to bed, wouldn't shower, kept turning his music up over and over after I repeatedly went in there and turned it down, he woke the little one up at 12:30am by slamming his door, he stole my phone and hid it then wouldn't give it back to me...

He laid on the bed as I emptied his dresser looking for it and just laughed at me...

Finally after I took his phone charger, he gave me back my phone - without the battery (got that back as well since I wouldn't return the charger without it), he threatened to pour gas on me and set me on fire if I went to sleep so needless to say, I didn't sleep well last night...

I woke him up this morning to go to school and he had the nerve to ask me if he could just stay home cause he was tired - Not gonna happen - Made him get up and he went to school, slamming doors all along the way...

Setting boundaries for him is like setting them for my H - Neither wants to live by any rules so after a night of thinking, of course some praying & a whole lot of crying, I am taking Gno's advice...

If I was you, I'd insist that he go stay with his father. H won't let son cramp his style. Don't take "no" for an answer from H.

Some of you may not agree with me (and I understand) sending him to his Dad however the way I see it, they are both poison to me and to my little one right now.

I won't be threatened anymore by a 14 year old and the fact that I am losing sleep because of it isn't a good thing for my mental state.

I have tried walking away however he just follows me around spewing his hatred...

He has bowed up at me like he was going to strike - And no worries there because he would only do it one time.

He has stated in the last week that he wished his little brother had never been born and that he would be better off if the two of us were out of the picture - Now I don't trust him to not do any harm to the little one if no one happened to be around.

Between all the probation mess, the classes, the appointments, and the money I have to pay every month because he is on probation...Not to exclude the attitude, the anger, the disrespect and the blatant rudeness - The way I see it, his Dad made this bed and it is time he gets to sleep in it.