My H sent me an e-mail last night. To sum it up...

He says he is paranoid I am going to do something to try and get back at him for how horribly he has treated me. He said he always has these thoughts rolling around in his head and I should understand that. He says that is his issue (he has no problem saying what his issues are, he just NEVER does anything about them). He said it is hard for him that I am no longer there for him at his beckon call but he guesses he will have to accept it as he knows he is no longer there for me. He says when I don't respond to him he pesters me because he is nervous that I will do something because of how badly he treated me. He says sometimes he is joking but our R is too strained. He again said he was thick headed and stubborn and I should know that especially since our R is so strained. He says it is irrelevant if he reads my messages as he is going to take his time either way. He says he gets frustrated because in his mind he assumes how things will go and when they don't go that way he gets mad. He said after some time had passed and I found somebody else things would smooth over with his (LOL!) and we should be friends even though he treated me in such a terrible way.

During this message he must have said "how badly I treated you" 10 times and keeps stressing he is afraid I will get back at him but he would like to think he knows me better than that.

I am not sure exactly what he so paranoid about. Our court case is over and we have virtually no contact.

Please note: we have been separated for TWO months. he is still with OW for now going on 2 years. we have not had any contact since T-day when he blew up at me via text/e-mail because I really hurt his feelings because I didn't wish him a happy T-day.

This all seems to be coming out of left field. I am also annoyed because he said he took me OFF the auto insurance and now he tells me "not exactly, I put you as a "non driver".

He took our car leaving me stranded in April of 2008. I have not even sat in the car since then. What is the point of this non-driver business?

He acts like he cares and the bottom line is he only does that to keep tabs as he is afraid some backlash is coming. That is pretty screwed up.