Calling out the Piecers

[dday101798]

Guess a random journalizing:

Hadn't heard from W since early afternoon yesterday. We were bouncing back and forth some rather playful texts, but left work without questioning why I hadn't heard from her and made the long drive home.

And it's that drive that makes my mind just flutter and wander, especially after I pass through 'our' neighborhood and begin the extended 13 mile trip thereafter.

Just got to thinking about the messages on W's phone from OM and if my ass-umption was right or not, why I hadn't heard from her, and what she is up to at the current time.

Anyway, got 'home' and settled in and got to cooking. W finally started calling and texting, but being busy and my mind in a flux, I opted to play distant and just get done what I needed to and in the spirit of things, not be readily available, just texted back I was busy.

Man, does that freak her out. When dinner was done I got caught up on the premier of "24" and then last night's episode, so there went my entire night. And she was texting like crazy "what are you doing" the enitre time. With each text I just felt more automatically inclined to just let her ride it out as sort of a way of saying "now you know what it feels like to not know what you're up to". Didn't mean to do it to be mean, but something told me to just do it. Guess GAL'ing?

I finally did end up calling her when I went to bed to say goodnight and firm up plans to pick her up this morning. Of course she was demanding to know what I had been doing. I said I was busy, dinner, some TV and 'stuff'. Heh, she didn't like the vaugueness too much, but again, I felt the neccessity of mysteriousness with her in light of the fact of her not mentioning her 'interaction' with OM this weekend.

Not too far into the conversation I noted the voice of her girlfriends in the background and asked where she was. "I'm in 'friends' truck in front of my house talking for a few minutes". Eh-heh, same friend she used to sit in front of our house with and fry brain cells all night. Claims she was freaking out because S12 "ransacked her room".

So without getting into that, I said I'd let her go and pick her up in the morning and what time to be ready.

She ended up texting a few more times as dosed off.

This morning, holy moly. I came in her back door as normal and I felt like I was walking into a police station. Everybody is yelling and screaming at each other and it was just chaos. Apparently S12 went through her room and took a digital camera and a pack of cigarettes W just bought were 'missing'. S12 finally volunteered to show W where he put the camera after I started searching his bookbag and jackets. No sign of the cigarettes yet. Then again, W is so disorganized she'll find them a week later and never apologize for it, been there done that.

So calmed everybody down and dropped the boys off for school and proceeded to take W to work.

About half way there and near total silence, my stomache started to burn from he hiding whatever it was with OM on Saturday so I flicked the radio off really grabbing her attention and I said, "alright enough, I can't take this anymore". W said "what?". I said, "is there anything I ought to know about from Saturday?". She play niave about anything for a few minutes. So I cut to the chase and ask, "did you see OM Saturday afternoon?". She admitted to it. Said she was at 'our' house and he needed to take care of the morgage payment on the infernal house they bought, so he pulled up, she "ran it out to him and that was it". I verified this with her several times without revealing my source for any signs of discrepancies and her story was solid each time.

So, I'm going to say my assupmtion is validated, and they only net to handle that. I then addressed my thought on what she was doing sitting in a car all night infront of her house and what I thought she was doing. S11 was very upset about it too. She denies they were "smoking". Says her girlfriends were out shopping and stopped by to take her to the store to get some wine so she could relax after her problems with S12. Again, I verified several times, and her story was pretty consistant.

None the less, my point is getting accross with her and she even said so herself that she can tell I'm running out of patience with her continued involvement of any sort with OM. She sights since it was such a brief encounter she didn't feel it neccessary to say anything in light of how I was feeling on Friday as I had said. I told her point blank, I don't ever want anything in that regard kept from me ever again. She says that although the house isn't done she's putting it up on the market ASAP to sever that tie. When I dropped her off at work, she asked if I'd be intrested to go to her brother's in the same town as this house and stay the weekend. I told her fine, but I'm not going to THAT house, but my truck needs fixed first so maybe not.

So atleast, my points and feelings are getting accross and seeing slow repsonse from her that is beggining to accelerate. She's getting to understand, the longer this drags out, the more I feel like she's playing both sides of the fence, even though she's not, but has to understand and I am slowly backing out of this for my own protection and she needs to get a move on with some reassurances here.

On a side note, had a dream of us getting re-married alst night. First of it's kind. She needs to get to work here.