here we go again

[Jstar]

i need to vent:

This weekend parts really sucked! to begin with sunday wake up t a dead battery and flat tire. So i call my trusty niece and her bf comes over in the morning to jump and put air in tire, so i can get to my dr.s appointment.

we go to appt. and d2 is not allowed to be there anymore incase i have to be taken to the er if baby is in distress. so again call niece to pick up d2.

i pick up d2 after 2.5 hr dr. appt. and try to head home, tire goes immediately flat, i loose it, i'm angry, yellling crying talking to d2 like she's an adult, i hate your father, his friend sold me the car, h knows the freaking rims are shot since his friend put fix a flat in the tires and ate all the rims so every 2-3 months i have to get all new tires.

i'm not made of money, it's raining try the nearest tire repair shope they only accept cash, i never have cash, so i just drive the car home. keep in mind h has not paid phone bill so not like i can just call anyone up or a cab.

so d2 and i go home so i can get myself under control so later we have to walk up to the payphone to call niece again.

she comes over later to pick up d2 and i so we can spend the night at her house and i can get to work without loading my d2 on a bus 8 months pregnant, carrying 2yr old car seat and all my work things.

HATE is a word i do not like to use, but the feeling i am having is tremendous hate for H. he knows car is not all that reliable and his response to everything is well if you don't h elp me first i'm not helping you, if you aren't nice to me, you are desperately wanting my attention blah blha blah. yes that's right,
pregnant, can go into labor anytime, no phone, broke down car, 2yr old, numb hand and fingers, out of breath walking raining nah that's not desperation i don't know what the h@#$ is. he is a major frEERRRTRT loser.

car not fixed have to see each docter every week, and the bastard that i married DOES NOT CARE about me his kid or one inside me fighting for his life!