Keep Moving Forward

[BeingMe]

Thanks Cat! I spoke to H again on Sunday. I said I was done ... that something needed to change. I wasn't going to waste anymore time on a M that was not working ... for me or him. I said to him, "surely, you aren't happy either." He agreed, but had no solution. He left Sunday night for two days on business. I just don't know what to do. He contacts me by phone as usual, says ily at the end of conversations as usual. I feel like I have wasted 4 years and all for nothing. His brother is coming for a visit this week, and after that, I will be moving H into the spare room. I can't live like this is a normal M anymore. Once he is out of my room, I will think what the next step will be. I still want him as a friend because I care about him, but I don't think I love him anymore. I have nothing left to give him, emotionally.

I feel like he didn't even half try, but he seems to think he did.

I am going to need all your prayers again. The next few months, I think, are going to be difficult. But, I think this M is causing me more stress then leaving it will.