I have read your posts and nothing I am going to say is much different than any of the other long-timers on here but I just wanted to let you know that all of us have been there and you too will get to a point (with or without your H) where you can love your life again. I look back now at my early posts and am so very grateful for this site and the friends I made. I re-live the pain every time I read a new poster's story and yet my own past feels like someone else's life. Stay with your DBing and work on YOU. Be the great mommy you are and take the time to get out and find what else you love, even if it is only a 15 minute walk around the block while the kids are with H. Hang in there and know that you are not alone...it WILL get better.
Trust in yourself...you are the only one that can guide your future...
Me-28 X-30 QLC-just separated from OW after 3 yrs M-3yrs Tog-8yrs D-3yrs Bomb-8/5/06