Hi flowmom, you posted on my page today, Thank You!
I have read your...... Situation.
My heart goes out to you and your children. I mean that with all of my heart!
I have come back here for support, you are here, IT'S A GREAT PLACE FOR US.
Being here is a great start, don't leave here, keep talking it out in type. Second, affirm in your mind constantly, you can perservere(sorry, bad speller). You have the strength and compassion for you and your children to get through this. It is your love and commitment that will carry you and your children through this as well.