I understand how hard this all is. I really, really do. I think at day 12 I was still sitting on my living room floor rocking in a fetal position in a state of shock!
You are going to accept that you have ZERO control over your H's actions. That is also not easy, I know!
Every post you make is about what your H does or what his issues are or how you can make things better. I get all that too. We all do.
You are going to have to put your H and his issues on the back burner for a while and really, really start to work on you. And a big part of working on you is acceptance and detachment. It's *very* hard.
You know, I realized today I am not really sure my H is totally detached from me. We have not lived together in almost 2 years and he has been involved with OW since then. But I really do think he likes knowing I am "there". Not to reconcile but just *because*.
You have to take some time each day for you. Even if just 5 min. or you will start to go crazy! Even if it is something super simple like planting a few herbs in your kitchen to grow in a sunny window then finding new recipes to use them in. What do you like to do?
I know it feels like time is standing still but it has been less than 2 weeks. And the more you mentally cling to your H (even if you are not acting that way) the harder it will be.
I bet you are scared and overwhelmed and I so get that. We are here for you but please do consider taking some focus off him.
