Hi guys, put my kids to bed and my D7 told me as she was closing her eyes "mom, I asked dad if heis marrying another woman and he said no and then I asked him if he loves you and he said he loves you and us very much".
The kids are still waiting for the "we got back together speech" and I cant get myself to do it. Afraid we will hurt them again
My H's answer is one of my big problems:me and the kids are a package. We are what he wants but me as a person, as a woman, am not a woman he would come back to if the kids didnt exist. Not this year not last year. I know there is no use thinking this way but I believe that explains the lack of sexual interest and tenderness. I am a mom. I am his partner, I am not his woman. Thinking about it, feels like a rejection. And of course I am too sensitive to any kind of rejections right now.
The end of my old M is what I am grieving. Been crying a lot lately. But this shall too will pass. Need to find my balance and inner peace, maybe then I will have something to give. Thanks for stopping by friends, K
