I know, its a double edged sword. I want SG to leave me alone, and yet I don't.

It's hard for me because I live across the country and there are no children, and there is no reason we should even be talking. We share nothing. I will probably never see him again. That alone breaks me in two, this man I love so much, and knowing that seeing him will cause me more pain, and that because of that I have to choose never to see him again. Nik, I am not sure which is worse...having to see your H again or me never seeing mine.

BBJ, I do the same thing...I think that maybe, just maybe he doesn't want the D because he is dragging his heels. But deep down, I think I know that it is the same thing... he is lazy and is just used to having everything done for him.

I pray to God I will get over him. It has gone on for such a long time, and I am getting damned tired of shedding tears for a man who could care less.

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..