We pay a very high price as the LBH, in more ways than one.
No, it is not wrong for you to feel that way. There are times that the price just is too high. I don't know if that is the case for you, and it sure seems like there is lots of good potential for you and H to keep piecing. But, I understand it doesn't always feel that way.
Hang in there hun, you have done an amazing job so far and I know you can keep going. Have a good cry and do some taking care of YOU!