Pearl, I know, I know! I looked once at a local bookstore, they didn't have either in stock so I've been planning to order them... just need to do it! We are not in MC right now. We had gone to 2 sessions in the fall, when I thought there was just an EA "winding down" as he kept telling me at the time. Now that I know what was really going on at that time, no wonder the MC wasn't doing much. But, H did like the MC and has agreed we should go back. He initially said he wanted to focus on IC first, though. I haven't brought up MC for a bit and I think it might be time to do that.
H called just a short time ago. He is struggling today with guilt again. Also, the fears of losing his job. He has done this work for twenty years. There are not a lot of job openings in his field and he has no interest in re-training at his age for something else. I am trying to encourage him not to think about the worst case scenarios, but I know he feels he needs to plan "in case". The trouble is, he can't seem to find "a plan". He is pretty discouraged today.
I am doing my best to detach enough to not get brought down by H's emotions, but still validate and support. No wonder I'm so tired all the time... lol!
Anyway, I truly am grateful to be piecing, and do believe we will be moving forward. I think I just have to accept this is going to be hard for awhile.
