Why do i still care !

[flowmom]

Pollyanna, that sounds like a really painful place to be. I can understand not being able to let go of being an intact family. Most women I know invest soooo much in their families, and give up a lot to make things work. When the foundation of the family crumbles, it's our nature to not give up. I'm asking myself if it's harder for me to let go of the R or the intact family? I think it's the latter because in some ways I've had longer to accept that the R isn't going well, meeting my needs, reciprocal, etc.

It's hard to see your children in pain. Probably the best thing you can do for them right now is to role model finding a genuine place of peace and acceptance of what is. Easy to write, I know <rolling eyes at myself>.

I posted in Awoken's thread what I want to do to help myself with dealing with my own thinking. I think that I want to put some focus on doing The Work. I am suffering because I am believing my thoughts. I need to challenge those thoughts. I want to re-read the book I Need Your Love - Is that True?. It's a great book and it helps me to see that there are other ways of looking at love than the way that I am stuck in now.