It gave me hope and at the same time it scared me...I really want this to work but she also said that after she is done watching I have to accept her answer either way and that she is still not wanting to be married.
As far as making changes for me that is exactly what I am doing. I will not be made a victim and I know I am stronger than I have been. Does not mean my feelings have changed but I know I have what it takes to do this.
Yeah part of our problem is she reads those books and thinks that is what life is...No one can live up to that...She did state the other day that she does not want a fairy tale romance anymore though she wants to be single. I know she has told EA she needs time to work on her but they are still in communication and he is laying it on THICK. Now she only brings him up though to tell me what he did that she wants me to do or wished I had done. I can't help but think Gardner is right that she is laying out a map for me whether intentional or unintentional I do not know.
yeah I see why you are saying it upsets her...She told me the other week to stop and not be so nice or so me because it makes her doubt everything she is doing. One of the reasons I am going back to my house. When I am there and I do me she seems to not be able to help but come around...Of course I am going to do me and change regardless of what happens with her but if I can have the added benefit of having a big enough impact to save my marriage why not?
Thanks for the encouragement Sandi I am not giving up...Been through too much in life...I have a whole lotta fight in me especially when the stakes are so high...myself and then my marraige.
If there is anything else you can think of please let me know.
