I am going to start seeing a counselor on Wednesday. For the same things you have mentioned on this thread--
I still love him, cannot 'turn it off' even though I know he's cheated, lied, etc etc.
Because my h is so lazy/conflict avoidant that I had to file even though I wanted to stay M, I let a small corner of my mind believe it means he doesn't really want it to be over.
Anyway not to hijack, but I agree it is hard to stop loving someone when you pledged 'for better or worse', for the rest of your lives.
Of course I still get really pi$$ed off too, sometimes! Who knew you could cycle this much without getting on a bike??
Who knew you could cycle this much without getting on a bike??
