I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[flowmom]

talia, it sounds like dealing with your issues is going really well. An alternative to prescriptions is St John's Wort, an over-the-counter herbal remedy which you might want to investigate if you want help with mood management. Like you, I'm afraid of being depressed and I'm taking it now to ensure that serotonin is on my side. It's backed by a lot of research and I've personally found it helpful (H did too but he didn't continue taking it either).