Awoken,
I'm so glad you had a great weekend with your kids. I
know what you mean about those glimpses into their world-
I get that once in a great while with my D9 and it fills
my heart with joy!

About the dread-
this is what I do....I imagine a giant stop sign like I have
read about on these posts. I know it sounds crazy but it helps.
Also, I just keep remembering WHAT IF this is my last day on
earth, am I going to waste it worrying about their mood OR make
MY mood the best it can be. Also I have decided that I can mope/cry
later when my kids aren't home. They need me to be
the very best mom I can be---I learned that from you!
My dad always told me that I AM in charge of my outlook-
no one else-not my co-worker or spouse or friend--I AM in
charge of me.

You only have to get thru one day at a time. I hope today
is great for you.

JG


M-44
H-44
D9
S1
M-17 T-20
Bomb-8/09 EA/PA/MLC
H moved out 2/4/10

It's not hard to make decisions when you know what your values are.-Roy Disney