I am also glad you got an appointment Maria. If I can make a small suggestion....you need to work things out with a professional....never mind your H for now. I don't have experience with councellors, piecing or a woman's mind......BUT, until you get some "things" compartmentalized, and get another outlet for your "obsession", your feelings will fluctuate. You are feeling low right now and again it ia apparently all part of the process.....the ups and downs. You not only experienced the bomb like all of us here, you experienced something even more traumatic. You saw the aftermath (e-mails etc). What you are going through is normal.
<<Ultimately, the key to healing from infidelity involves forgiveness, which is frequently the last step in the healing process. The unfaithful spouse can do everything right- be forthcoming, express remorse, listen lovingly and act trustworthy, and still, the marriage won't mend unless the betrayed person forgives his or her spouse and the unfaithful spouse forgives him or herself. Forgiveness opens the door to real intimacy and connection.
But forgiveness doesn't just happen. It is a conscious decision to stop blaming, make peace, and start tomorrow with a clean slate. If the past has had you in its clutches, why not take the next step to having more love in your life? Decide to forgive today.>> This is from one of Michelle's articles and this is what you and your C should be concentrating on....in my opinion...beginning to wipe that slate clean. Take care of YOURSELF Maria, the rest is sure to follow.
