Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

Well, the weekend went by pretty fast, and w/o much of anything in my sitch.

Heard from S12, but nothing from S15 again.

The Vikings winning really helped!!

My mind wandered off and on all weekend. I had some one on one coaching in the alt, and that really helped me open my eyes to alot of things. - Thanks Gnosis.

I am getting to the point of not caring about my W's actions anymore. I still have the occasional pang, or urge to hear from her. But the anxiety and panic that I used to feel, are subsiding.

I'm not sure if this means I am detached, but I sure don't FEEL the same way anymore.

I think I have ACCEPTED, for the most part, what has happened, and am finally coming to terms with what is to come - DIVORCE.

Honestly, I am very, very close to completely being done with my W. What I mean by that is-right now, I don't FEEL that I WANT to be with her anymore. Too much done. Too much said. Too many partners. I just value myself more than that. I may take some heat for that, but that is the gospel.

Right now, I don't see anything that could ever happen that would change those feelings. I just can't imagine anything happening, to sway those emotions back to what they were. Just too much damage done for me to put in the required work.

I know my M has changed. I know my W has changed. I have changed. I just don't think all of it can be put back together, and anything new started-I just don't see it.

Hope everyone has a great week!

SKOL VIKINGS!!!!