Hi guys, it has been a very emotional and difficult time for me. Thank God yesterday I felt better and more optimistic but I also accepted that this isnt working the way we are doing it and that I/we need some serious help if I am going to make it.
Most of it is in my head. Triggers and flashes of the past -the way I imagine it- are bothering me almost every single moment of the day. I think H realised it but I also think that I scared the h$ll out of him with the result of him walking on eggshels more than before.
I went ahead and booked an apt with an counselor today. By myself the first time, to see if I feel she can help us and see how she works etc etc. It's at 5 in the afternoon. I hope she is good. K
