Ran into wife twice today, didn't say anything to her when she was at restaurant with om and friends, did say hi to friends, they were my friends. They're not any longer. Was being nice dropping off records to the friend, that i said i would keep safe, as i walked up, i heard the old friend say,"do you think he'll come in or wait in the parking lot for me to come out?"
Should have seen the look of shock on their faces as I said hi, didn't see wife's expression,totally ignored her,even said hi to the om. Anyway dropped off records.Told them if they wanted anything of mine, help themselves.
Later D,tricked me,she told me she needed clothes,knew she didn't,she wanted to go to mom's so she could play cards with mom,om and the friends.Called her on it, she got upset.I was suppose to have D today.Anyway told D,just tell me the truth vs making something up,just say dad want to hang here instead,she said it,i said great and she was happy.
typical teen told her i got her an ipod,did she want me to drop it off.YES and her hair straightner.
Anyway had to ring the door bell to get in my own house,D the friends, OM I see them, wife is bent over.
I just casually say hey D, don't play me ever again like your mom did,wife said i didn't need to start that way in front of her friends, that they weren't mine anylonger,i said do what you want, i'm going to treat you like you do me, as an ex.
The om looked at me funny,and they were playing the records i just returned, so said to him that pile over there is mine you can have 'em.
matter of fact you and wife can have it all.
Wife said something like keep ipod at my place so D can download here,said no you've got a laptop,she can do it here and shrugged.
Also noticed on the fridge,flipping wife has court orders,highlighted,on the fridge.
I should've played it cooler,I knew D played me,should've kept it to myself,who knows.
I am trying to quit smoking so texted d and wife at the same time."have a little patience.quitting smoking,pms'ing,have fun playing cards."
Had a good day,I'm hosed, I really don't see much of a chance,she is unfazed,she's wearing my winter coat,removed all pics of me,but has put my mom's keep sakes and gifts I got her on display in the living room, she's just mean man, just mean.
Is that how it works,they run,destroy,live life and then hurt or what,because i KNOW she's off,but she does look to be having a lot of fun.
Biggest point is I should've played it a little cooler,think I said the right thing,just wasted my breath.I'd been better off,ignoring.
Oh well it's done.
I know I shouldn't feel this way, but I feel like I wasted 19yrs.
