Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

Ok today... WH came over and I planned my usual: work out then leave to go to the store. We were totally out of baby food. I said I would get some today and he said that he could always go and get some if I just wanted to chill out and not go anywhere. I said "thanks but I REALLY DO want to get out of the house!" I worked out, then he remembered that I needed to update the GPS he bought me last year (add some current maps) and got the cords and box down from the office. I honestly felt nervous about him being alone on my laptop because I have some affair stuff saved but I did delete the history of internet searches.. I don't want him to know my strategy!

So I started the work on the computer to update the maps but then had to go to the store. (I did move around the affair documents I saved to inconspicuous folder). When I returned there was 30 minutes before he had to leave. He was playing with S and saying how much fun he is these days. I hung out on the couch reading a cookbook while he had a football game on TV, sitting on the floor with S. It felt good- natural and I imagined what it could be like if we were back together...this could be a typical Sunday night!

Oh and here is something else-tomorrow, WH has the day off being MLK Jr's B-day (90% sure OW does also since they both work at the same place!)I knew this but originally on the visitation calendar he just wrote the usual time. So I figured he had plans with OW during the day or something. Well today he said he forgot that he had tomorrow off and if it was all right, he could come over during the day but he also completely understood if I had other plans.He also said that he knew I also appreciated help getting S down at night so he could also just come at night like usual. Well I told him that he could come after our music class any time so he is coming 2-6. It's not fantastic BUT it does mean he would not be taking the entire day to be with her! In fact, in November he had Veteran's Day off and chose to spend it with her instead of coming over here.

So that's it...I managed to be physically absent about 4/5 hours.