I know that it seems impossible to put this out of your mind. your life is upside down and inside out. You have to ride this process out.
Know for 100 % surety though that you will get through it. At what cost to yourself is up to you. Your not well at the moment and your body is in shock. Take whatever help is out there . i mean that in friends, family and medication. Talk talk and talk some more until your ready to look at other coping strategies.
We have all been there and we all feel your pain.
We can all be here to help you with each crazy stage and there will be many.
