Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
lost = I saw your post on rr22's thread - yeah, we are married to the same man lol.
Mood swings ---- arg! I'm dealing with that today. For months I have escaped to the bedroom or my neighbor's to avoid being influenced by H's moods. Since xmas, he has been way more open and relaxed, so I let my guard down. The old angry H is back today with a vengance - rude when speaking to me, and late/uncommunicative with S's dropoff. This used to pull me into an argument. Today I have to go back to the old retreat to the bedroom or neighbor's routine.
I agree if H could just talk to me we could resolve these things but I think he'd rather have his tantrum so I have to let it go.
This is the old pattern from way before he left. Walking on eggshells has been so painful. DB has taught me how to not go so up and down with his moods. Hang in there.