he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

update:

court has ordered h to begin paying me a good amount for child support maintenance, insurance and legal fees...my attorney doubts he will begin payment but its a starting point. he also owes me like 4 months of retroactive money which i could really really use! not sure how he will pay all of this money but not my problem! he has also agreed to sign over our only remaining asset (which up until now he was set on splitting)

today i attended a first birthday party for one of his cousin's children. i am very close with his aunt and cousins so i was the one invited, not him. my in laws were there, along with my brother - in law and sister in law.

it was hard, i thought i was fine, i have seen them every few months or so, but it was hard. when i left i was crying and im not even sure as to why exactly. i guess its the loss of my close family that i once had, that now im kinda like the outsider, even though i never ever did anything wrong.

i sat at a different table than i would have in the past. my nephew that i basically raised acted as if he didnt even know me anymore (he is 4)

i guess divorce breaks apart more than a marriage, it breaks apart your entire extended family.

and its so funny, i couldnt be happier with my boyfriend, enjoying myself so much, he treats me like gold.

but my husband's family were my family and it is an adjustment to really not be a part of the family like i was.