I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[talia]

Sorry for the confusion with the name change - security hack issues facilitated a new email address and I changed the screen name to match so I wouldn't forget!


Hi Mark,
I haven't had any positive repsonse from H yet. He does seem to be overly interested in what's going on with me when he talks to mutual friends, but he also gives everyone the impression he's "perfectly" happy with OW. I could infer/assume some of his behavior is him waffling - based on the pattern's I've read on here - but he's never said anything to me but Divorce, Divorce, Divorce. I'm trying not to read anything into any of his behavior or communication. I have no way of truly knowing what he's thinking and it drives me crazy. I know he's noticing but nothing seems to be changing. I'm getting more and more detached, but I do struggle with that a little. How I handle this whole divorce talk - filing jointly - how to break up our complicated finances meeting is big. I haven't seen him or really talked to him much since mid Nov. I'm torn between just emailing him and telling him to file whenever - I don't care; and meeting with him so he can see more of the changes. Any thoughts?

I've done a pretty good job with PMA. It seems like the times when I get run over by a semi is when I start letting myself worry about what he's thinking and how he will react to me. My biggest issue is fully detaching so that I truly don't care what the outcome is for all this - I don't think I'm fully there yet. There are still days where I drive myself crazy thinking that something I do specifically will change him. I know its crazy but I still think sometimes if I handle this one specific meeting or email one specific way he'll come home. Anyone else struggling with this? I'm good most of the time - but then....

Does anyone have insight for a WAH - I see alot in insight on WAW's - any WAH on this site who can shed some light?