I feel like Im starting to hate my WAS

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brknheart,

My Wife just moved out yesterday. I stood in my living room alone and stared at the walls. I could not stand it any more. Had to go out for a drive and a walk etc. The loneliness is driving me insane.

I know your pain. Mornings and nights are the worst. And she even haunts my dreams sometimes. I sometimes hear her calling my name in my sleep. But the reality is that she is gone and she would be happier if I were a million miles away from her.

I just cant get over the fact that she would rather live alone than to stay with me. And I was never an abusive husband. Just can't wrap my brain around why she would just want me out of her life and living space.

Like you I was mad at her yesterday also. Busted my butt to help her move on my day off and all I wanted was a hug and a kiss before I said goodbye. (yeah I know, needy, clingy).
All I got was a dirty look and she told me "you volunteered to help move me". Why am I such a dumba$$ sometimes?

Guess I should go dark for a while but the only darkness I have is the one falling over me right now.