robx, yes , of course you make perfect sense. sorry to ask the same questions ....I'm not a stupid guy, just stupid here. I don't really know why i am so afraid, but obviously i am. I do read and will get Tough Love and No More MR Nice Guy. Please know that i am drained from what's happening here. It's taking quite a toll. I am OPEN to suggestions on how to get strength or "balls" . Feel like going back to bed and crying into the pillow. I talk to my DB coach this week, hopefully we'll all get this going for me.THANKS for keeping me in you thoughts. rob668
