Try to just acknowledge those feelings, acknowledge how bad it is... but don't get stuck there. I got in the habit of going for a drive somewhere by myself so I could rage, cry, vent etc. I also go to IC for myself. In your darkest moments, try to remember your W is not herself. Whether it is MLC or the addictive nature of the A, she is in the fog we have all witnessed our WAS's to be in.
Take care of yourself Blownaway. Do something kind for yourself. Be gentle with yourself, lower your expectations of yourself. You are going to be hurting for awhile.
But then, dust yourself off, pick yourself up and implement whatever plan you have decided to take. Use the DB strategies, try not to show all this emotion to W. When you do see her, look great, smell great and keep calmly stating your stand.
No matter how your sitch turns out, you won't hurt like this forever. You will be ok. And, we are here for you.
