Stop.
Reading.
His.
Private.
Emails.

You are better than that.

Yes, these people are all crazy. But you've known that. Your ACTION of reading his emails shows that you are not as over your addiction as you would like to believe you are.

Cold turkey, hon. You need to get yourself healthy for that baby of yours.

Any more AlAnon meetings?

50 miles away sounds really tempting right about now.