Moving on with my life!

[Startingover2]

I just had to share this...Exh has made me out to be psycho obsessed or she is the loony one. Either way I am so not talking to him about anything but baby! What a bunch of freaks. Exh has created all of this drama...how is it all my fault?
From MGF to Exh:

"Ok I don't even know where to start... I get such mixed emotions from you. One day I feel like I am the love of your life, and one day I feel like you could care less about me. I don't even know what to feel anymore...My feelings for you have been constant Exh. I have loved you through everything. I have had to handle a lot of loss with you and a lot of drama from SO2. And always I had stood my ground because I have loved you. I have loved you completely with a pure heart, not the psycho and controlling way like SO2. You say I will always be in your heart and at first I smile and feel comfort, but then I realize that its not enough. I don't just want to be a memory or somebody you think about from time to time. I want to be with you and feel loved every single day. I'll never understand why it can't be that way and I struggle every single day just to get through it. Last weekend you made me feel such emotions and I really felt that you loved me and appreciated me. I was on cloud nine and I felt that we would make it because you finally felt what I feel. I really had myself convinced that it was all going to be ok. But one text from the crazy ex and I get thrown out like trash again...You have no idea how painful that feels to me and just how insignificant I feel. I feel like I have been really good to you and I feel like I have stood by you when nobody else would have or ever has. Again My love is real. I know SO2 is always there for you too but we are two different people. She is the obsessed type that can't get anything else so she will never let go of you. I love with you with a pure heart. You seem to think I have moved on and its just not true. I can't even think about moving on Exh because you are still in my heart. I am so confused and I don't want to move on cause what I want is you. I would have to give up completely on you to be able to open my heart enough to move on. I don't know when that will happen but as of right now, I just can't yet.What hurts me the most is that I have no idea what to feel and how to deal with any of it. I have been feeling so let down and it has been just killing me inside. I try to put on a smile and act like I am ok, but on the inside I am just dying and I am so sad and I can't eat and can't sleep. I am [censored] depressed and there isn't a damn thing I can do to change any of it! SO2 wins every single time and that is just the worst part of it all. I didn't want to be another one of her victims and I firmly believed that I was different and you would stand up for me and fight for us! But here I am....I don't have you anymore and I can't stand being away from you. My days and night are extremely long and I don't enjoy much of anything anymore because everything reminds me of you...I hate this facebook because it reminds me of you, I don't like music cause it all reminds me of you, I can't watch tv cause certain shows we watched remind me of you, I'm not looking forward to the rain for the next five days because I will think of you....the list goes on and on. You were my life and I can't stand the way things are. I miss you so much.There is no way that I can get you to feel the power in my words by a message and I just hope that you know that I feel very deeply for you and I wish you could see that. You always worried I would leave you...I never did and never would have. You left me and I am still trying to figure out how to pick myself up off the ground...as for now I am still laying face down on the ground until I find the strength to stand back up or find a reason to."

This right there..has given me so much strength into not buying his garbage anymore!