Went to therapy today and yesterday picked up an old book of mine to read and it really spoke to me and cleared up some thoughts and issues that I am dealing with.
Spoke to therapist about what I learning and he was very supportive and felt it was timely. Since therapist is also our MC he knows what I am dealing with and reinforced what I was reading and re-learning - ie in this relationship. It felt good and much better than last night.
IC/MC also gave me some answers to tough questions w/o taking sides which I really find valuable. I believe that my H has serious problem with relationships that are not his fault. I believe he has a responsibility to get the help he needs which is completely on him. In addressing R/M issues i need someone who can be objective with both of us. I will make my own decision in time and I don't want anyone to be the bad guy if that is possible. Hard to accomplish but it is how I am.
So today I have recovered some ground with myself. No closer to answers but closer to identifying and making the changes I need to do for me. BTW, IC/MC heavily suggested that my changes are not just curative to me but to my H as well which I need to keep hearing.
Thanks for listening and comments/ reassurance and general witnessing to my life and changes is helpful.
