Spybunny... Everything is ok. I decided to take a break form here cuz I did not feel like I was getting any where on this. I know that most people believed that I need to leave my marraige but I was not ready to. I wanted people to help me find ways to better myself, my marriage, help me understand my husband better, and hopefully help me to get on the path to saving my marriage. I felt as if no one here really wanted to help with that, instead it was always get out, get out, get out. I am still with my husband. Around christmas time, things came to a boil and I started looking for a different place to live. I called about apartments and houses and did this in front of him. I refused to hide what I was doing. In the end, I knew in my heart that I did not want it, that if I moved out then I would take him back at a drop of the hat. My Husband was on his knees telling me that he could not imagine his world without me. (Yes I know it is just words, I am hoping that he continues to show me this) I have now decided that I want to keep trying. I told my husband that I was going to give it one more try. If things did not improve significantly and soon, I was done. I would not continue to hurt and be married to him. I have seen much improvement in my husband, however, it remains to be seen how long this 'show' will continue. I am happy with things right now, but I do wait for the other shoe to drop. Only time will tell.
Me-31 Him-28 D1-9 D2-6 Married 5-06 Seperated 12-07 He filed 1-08 Reconciled 4-08 D dropped 7-08 Bomb dropped about H's activities outside the marriage 4-21-09 Filed for D 4-28-09 Trying to make a go of it 6-09
