Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

Cutter, I am relieved to have your support on this! Phew! I mean I make my decisions but still care what you guys think.

The other thing about meeting his stepdad is that my initial feelings and thoughts were NOT about the A and more about 1) wanting to meet him and 2)not wanting to hurt the stepdad's feelings. It was when I was second guessing myself that it made me think of the message my actions may have on WH. So it wasn't originally about WH for once! Imagine that?

On a different note, I wasn't feeling depressed about WH taking S today. When WH came in he first just stood in the hall and said "Hi,S! How are you?" And S turned his head toward the voice and had a huge smile on his face and got excited! Then when WH came into the room, S practically jumped out of my arms to see him! It sure made me feel good to see S is crazy about his dad, even if his dad is being a complete stupid idiot right now. It makes me feel good because I see hope for the two of them to have a good relationship regardless of what happens to our marriage.
Also, I was looking forward to some time in the house to myself. Now when he takes him overnight, that may be a different story.