I know exactly how you are feeling. Let me share another ah ha moment for me.
Several months back I found some old love letters my H had written to me in High School. I kept thinking "why doesn't he love me now like he did then?"
Then it HIT me, I'm not the same person I was then. At the time I was feeling just as you are. And guess what THAT IS NOT ATTACTIVE!!
Having the answer to your "HOW" question will not solve you problems. He doesn't know "WHY". Accept for the moment that it just is.
Now think back to when you two were falling in love. What is it that your H loved so much? Are you REALLY showing him that?
Yes, Cindy, I know it is SOOOO hard. But really if the end result is positive it will be worth it.
Another thing to keep in mind is to beleive none of what you hear and half of what you see when dealing with MLC. As you can attest the mood changes faster than the weather.
You need to focus on the end result and the BABY STEPS it will take to get there. Even if your H said, OK no D. Don't you think you would still have A LONG way to go to get a new R? It won't happen over night and this is just one day. Just gotta get through it. OK?
