Your initial apology was excellent -- I'm glad you did that. But to reapproach her a 2nd, and a 3rd time, and then do the "needy/grabby/melty-man" thing is CLASSIC "PURSUING," and you know that makes a walkaway feel smothered and pressured!
Puppy
And it says, "I'll feel better about what I did and said when you feel better about it and let me off the hook."
New DDog rule - you feel what YOU feel and it is no longer dependent on Mrs. DDog. You apologized b/c you felt you should. Fine. But you seem to be waiting for her permission to feel like your apology made a difference. Forgive yourself what you did/said. Whether she does or not - her deal.
Greek
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