Time IS passing you by. For me, I'm trying to set a mental time limit to hold on to. Like if I hold out X number of months (maybe 12 max, less than a lot of people on this board, but that's all I feel I can take without going crazy), that's what is reasonable and then I can be free knowing I gave it my all. Something like that. Who knows? Maybe I can take more than that. Or maybe I will get sick of it sooner. Hard to say what will happen once you get counseling support or if you see some baby step type improvement in your H's situation.