I know I need to go dark and detach for my own sanity. I obviously cannot handle trying to be nice while feeling walked on. Eventually the built up frustration is going to come out. Luckily I was able to stay somewhat sane through the R talk but I know I could lose it at any point.
I am tired and feel used and I can't believe my H is treating me this way. I am hoping to see a counselor this next week who understands MLC and depression in men. I need some guidance on how I can cope if I want to hang in there. I am just not sure I want to anymore! I think this is too hard for me! And i feel like time is passing me by!!
