Thank you. I am glad to hear you say you love him very much, and it makes sense why you have tried to train yourself not to mention that fact!
I hope you'll stick with us here on the board. We all get to feeling like a family......or at least I feel that way.. I get really concerned when a poster just suddenly stops without a word of "why". Never knowing what might have happened. Anyway, if you've been reading much, you have seen a rainbow of personalities.....lol. Like I said, a family.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!