I just learned he was in the midst of a MLC about a month ago. Prior to that I was completely clueless as to what was going on. After reading all of this information it all makes sense. MLC and depression is my husband.
I say all of that to explain that right now I am still reeling from the knowledge of what I am dealing with. My husband has for years told me of his undying love for me. So to have the man you thought would always be by your side treat you in this way is hard to take. He seems to totally care less what happens to us and continually blames me. I miss my old husband and I miss my marriage.
Plus I then read from these posts that it could take years for them to come through this. I can't do it. Maybe that makes me less of a person but I don't think I have what it takes. I don't see how many of you can live like this. I know you go on with your own lives but I want a husband and not one that is MIA. If he doesn't want to be a part of my life then I want to move on.
Yet then my mind goes back to the fact that he has a problem......help!!!! This feels like pure insanity! There is nothing sane about any of this!
For now I will go dark, consider him basically dead since the man I knew is gone and move on with my life as if he is completely gone. I just can't believe how painful this can be!! I am so utterly sad!
I do want to add that I don't know what I would do without forums like this one. You are there and give support! No one else can truly understand what is going on so you are the sanity in my life right now! That makes you a blessing from God in my eyes!!
