I have a " friend " I have just been accepted for a new job ( which I dont need ) I have my own business I am active in sports ( I think shopping is now recognised as a sport ?) I laugh I socialise
I feel right now that I could not commit to another person. I still get those shooting chest pains when i hear about WAS new woman. I hurt tremendously for my kids as they contemplate and act out their feelings of abandonment.
Do I leave the country - start again ? I can DB no more than I am and I can get no more of a life externally than I do- but I cannot move on inside. I love the father of my kids. I care about him.
But the feeling continues to polarize me emotionally.
