Looking for Advice

[gutwrenching]

And what do you know - text message from the W arrives: "going to the viewing, there is no reception out there"

It shouldn't lift my spirits, but it does. She initiates communication - I didn't contact her again today and she is letting me know that will be it till she returns (I already knew this, she told me this on the phone last night). The amazing thing is it isn't punching me in the ribs that she has had a free day and I can only imagine how many HOURS she talked to OM today...I think I am slowly making progress on this front as long as I don't concretely know exactly.

So I still have to debate what to do when she returns...if I see that pay as you go phone, do I check? can I handle seeing in black and white the hours of talking? No, I can't handle it, but is it the right thing to do in order to progess? I don't know