feel like bomb dropped again

[nightshade]

Thank you for the link LL
It is indeed a much more positive post and I"m sure that you can find there many things that can uplift you right now.
I really understand what you are feeling. I've been going trough some of those cycles myself, and so is Rui. But I'm learning how to fight them.
He choose to be stay with you and in the marriage. That's the main point.
He's acting in a caring way and that is a good. People sometimes have their ups and downs. It's us that tend to always link then to the affairs because that's what 's on our mind, and what hurt us. But many times it doesn't have anything to do with it.
THe problem is that once we start feeling negative there's some sort of a chain reaction and then things do get more negative.
Make a list of all the good things that happened.
Share it with him if he's receptive.
Bring your self confidence up with a makeover if that helps.
I remember there was a point RUi had no idea of who he was going to find when he got home LOL different hair style different style of clothes... come to think about it he still never knows
ANd don't think things will not get better.. they will if both of you want
nightshade