leftandknowwhy, H dropped the bomb when we were M for 19 years. His exact words were "I don't know that I'm in love anymore". This bomb was bound to happen, I know that now because we couldn't have kept going like we were. I didn't show him respect, he got to where he wasn't showing it to me either. There was EA woman, he denies ANY involvement still to this day but I know better. They sat in his truck one night after a class they were in that they met at and he left here on his bike to call her several times. Maybe there wasn't any emotional connection for her other than friends but I know he had some. It's what gave him the nerve to drop the bomb.
I told him to leave several weeks after that, he said "where will I go" I said "that's not my problem". He never left. He decided to stay with me and try and work on it. We had been working on it ever since. And we were successful. I would have given us a -1 at time of bomb with 0 being D, a few months ago I'd have given us a 7.
I blame myself because I did cause a lot of the damage all by myself. He loved me so much once. I took him for granted. I was a royal bitch at times. I read in books about what kills love, and I am guilty of most of it. Lisa
